Friend was there...

There she came, the girl,
the friend who deciphered me,
who ushered me in to a world of culinary
in a while fought and a betrayed a little
But the affinity sailed for a trifle
Alas! Rancour in hearts triumphed,
A journey so promising neared its end..

There came a boy, naieve and kind
he read my heart,
called me beautiful, when no one saw
was there when no one was,
Alas! Life betrayed my pal,
My friend was took a far....

There came a petite girl,
Read my eyes like a book,
instilled belief when it nowhere to look
Comforted and poured her love in wit,
Alas! Times changed
My friend and I distanced and moved apart

There came a strong lady,
Loving and kind,
Firercely protected me nice and fine
But fallacy took over, could never talk
Alas! Never got a chance
My friend left and away she walked.

There came a tiny friend
she met me perplexed
She took my mess as own,
but life's uncertainities took toll
Alas! Wish i can resolve.
My friend is unknown to my love

Friends come and go,
My love for all will be engraved when I am gone
Stories i have, memories built,
Unforgettable all
Grateful for moments and love
For needed they were in times
..but taken away, alas! Times have no right.

COME AND GO

COME AND GO

Its a norm, not a farce,

You think its forever, but alas,

In the moment u dont realise,

The joy it brings blinds

the fact; they may come and go

Losing yourself intogetherness

Giving your life to hopelesness

Trusting their empty promises,

You forget your lonely experiences

Which taught you they may come and go

The heart muddles again

Alas knows no restrain,

Believing everything ever told

As the illusion wraps the empty soul

and makes you forget; they may come and go

Soon enough palpability hits hard

Unable to apprehend,beats are fast

Trying to hold on,

Left breatheless,they move on

You refuse to believe; they may come and go

Breatheless,completly deranged

Tears streaming as you try to fade

away the delusions that you held

as a reality that you proudly acclaimed

Trying to accept; they may come and go

Getting up,dusting away the dust

Abandoned again to their bluff

Merciless is all you want to be

Brutal as no one would have seen

Anger accepts; they come and go

Callous and cold all you be

Never again is all you believe

Crushing your heart,crunching your teeth

Heartless you u be,sham all you see

Fucktards may come and go

HELL YEAH!

YOUR TRACES

Lately have been waking up alone,

lil' bit of pang scattered all along,

getting cold inside out,

with all your memories I don't wana recall

Wandering, following your traces

The allegiance that was there,

can't be the same, am aware,

even the absence can't be felt,

just an agonising void you left,

Getting tougher to follow your traces

Trying to return to my sleep yet again,

nights getting tired all over again,

so I lift my hands and pray,

get the same hope you once gave,

in the midst of following your traces

Can’t help but look back,

the road,together we walked

lonely as it now seems,

without our zaniness it once screamed

Your traces nowhere to be seen

Journey will now be different,

on my own, with your reminiscence

decide to be crazy again, 

might never have tomorrow,

the time has come let you go

can’t follow your traces anymore

loving

memory of aki :)

THEIR WRONGS & THEIR RIGHTS

The times when you are chained,

to shackles of their fancy and surmise

numbed by wound that once pained

just obscured with their wrongs and rights

You listen and you see,

they assert and give you reasons

how convincing can be their deceit

mystified with their wrongs and rights

You are caught in your question

acumen their thoughts with your wringer

choked up with their observation,

unsettled with their wrongs and rights

You hold your breathe,

await for the coldness to clench you tight

to gather strength to be indifferent

be unfazed with their wrongs and rights

You try to give a sign,

but fizzled by their claims

so you sit as unaffected mime

left to chose from their worngs and rights

You don't wanna fall apart

save your naievity from their mights

wall your soul with a silent maul

from the clutches of their worngs and rights

In the seclusion when your left

shun away all the admonition

chase the voice from within

leaving their rights and wrongs behind

Follow the directions,

till you can be happy and be wise

as you want as yo please

standing upto their wrongs and their rights.

THE NIGHT THAT TOOK YOU AWAY

  

What was it that made you so weak,

was it an illusion of dispair,

or absence of joy you always seek,

the reasons are too less,

cause why that night took you away

You were strong i believed,

not the one to give up easily

why,i could never perceive,

the macabre on the way

as the night that took you away

thought you  gonna be there 

for the time now and forever,

but then i could see next to never,

how can it now be forever;now,

halted by the night that took you away

the sense of the ending hasnt confirmed,

filling the time for

the hole ur absence affirmed,

nights tough to survive,

since the night that took you away

Reminisce of the times that songs bring

those that we sang together

assumed crazy when used to sing,

now left unsung as the unread letter, 

wish you could deceive 

the night that took you away

Must be Watching me from the above,

one thing you should always know,

we still a team, 

you had my back, now i have to own,

you will be happy and for my own

 cause that's my vow,

and spirit  will not be low,

by the night that took you away

THE GHOST OF THE STILL...

The ghost of the still is dedicated to the inner evil we all posses that reveals itself in that one moment of frustration and anger while we lose all our sanity to the devil and are just left with devastation of what we ones had.While you are caught up in that moment of stillness, when you lose your balance and surmise your own destruction, which was never there. READ ON.....

Halted in the moment,

that pierced you from the inside,

You wish moment to pass,

but 'the ghost of the still' resides

Boundless thoughts that wander

in lonely mind as a cloud,

blocks your afterimage,

cause the 'ghost of the still' blinds

Sadness that ones numbed you,

insanity that chased like the shadow,

temptation of annihilation of own,

compels you so 'the ghost of the still'

You held your breathe,

while the storm began to form,

looking in the debris of your hope,

that shows you 'the ghost of the still'

Destruction that catastrophic apparition leaves,

In search of the end,nowhere to be seen

left to collect the pieces of affiliations

cause 'the ghost of the still' deceives

If this Daisy got Scared

Through the winters,through the autumn,

still carries the aura of fascination

with the innocense she wears

it makes me wonder if

this daisy ever got scared

The reticence that beckon the petals
make you want to imbibe her
the reverence she now carries
who can say
this daisy ever got scared



the one with the standout magnetism
was the one faced with most witherings
that were trounced upon,
and lead to new traquil splendor
with beauty she now carries who can say
this daisy ever got scared

A sweet lil Lie

It was pouring love from the sky,

my heart just wished a goodbye

to one i miss in the rains that drizzle

a sweet lil lie i just managed to say

The shining arch that remind me

moments,precious to the heart that weeps,

"i have no reminiscence "i said

a sweet lil lie i just managed to say

heart wants its life back

it has no other way, but to say goodbye

forgive, its me that's dying here

a sweet lil lie is never easy to say

prayers shall be never be without you

and for the one who will truly love you

the way i wished i could one day

a sweet lil lie is way to me it alive...

it'll love till the beats stop

it knows it can't have you

still i say i don't want you

forgive,a sweet lil lie is just a way to love you

,

Reluctant Sail

Plethora of desires, bemuse my intention

anchoring the voyage isn't an option,
the me inside, wishes to change the direction
but will have to give all away
to continue the reluctant sail


The juvenile intellect that chose
needed time to be mature,
that intellect still reels
in my mind,willing to abjure
the reluctant sail unwilling to detour


Indisposition making the sail unwanted
wishing for a divergence
not the one made by me,
but one made by thee
reluctant sail makes me plea


How the voyage gona conclude
all this making me presume,
what will i do, where will i be
even when the voyage is complete
its not i wished, not i desire
i am obliged by the decision
taken by my juvenile intention

There is Love for You

For those who have lost that special person in their lives to various terror attacks across the globe

I know it is hard when I say,

ask you to move along the way,

without the hands that you held so close

but baby you have to let it go,be brave,hurt no more

cause there is enough love for you

I know you curse the time, that took away

the smile, laughter,love you shared

but this is the time to ask the god you pray

let your baby pass the peaceful ray

cause there is enough love for you

I don't know if your wounds heal

Perhaps never know of how you feel

but baby you are precious to me

to the world,you loved to the hilt

believe,there is enough love for you

Baby, all that is not worth your hate

I know it is tough,don't bother fate

things now can't be changed

and be happy for today

for there is enough love for you

Now its time to make life beautiful,

for you,me, the world so wonderful

there are people in need of your love

people to give you all their love

yes there is enough love for you

That's My Mom for You

She dances her way to the room

lights and chases away the gloom

makes everyone happy n at times fume!

that's my mom for you

Has a tendency to lose her cool

whenever people around her are fools

but makes a point of never being rude,

that's my mom for you

she loves her job all the more

works real hard to the core

never leave a task to sore

that's my mom for you

she is possessive for her family

but never expects the same from her family

is possessive but can't be possessed

that's my mom for you

Reminds me of fuhrer of Germany,

discipline matches with this felony

but has a heart of honesty

that's my mom for you

she makes friends real fast

has many friends in the world so vast

but as no time to maintain them alas.

that's my mom for you

she is freakingly funny

I can roll on the floor laughing

her antics are moronic

that's y mom for you

she has heart of diamond

gold,silver and platinum

most lovable and coolest person

that's my mom for you

luv you mom!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

CRAZY,FUN GIRL....

Yeah,I know I am the one,

am gonna dance crazy cuz i ain't nun

oh don't preach I am having my kinda fun,

am going mad,just making that crazy run

having a shot early morning,still ain't blur

ain't got care this world,

cuz for me it ain't more than a merde

n I have a life I don't want it to suck

don't worry I ain't faint

its just that matter doing its job,like my saint,

don't worry it ain't Kurt Cobain

its just my spirit getting numb to my pain.

hey DJ let my ears blow out

ain't gona listen to their nonsense talk

oh no, time is running in my clock

so am gona do whatever I want

So wanted here,that party doesn't start

till the crazy fun girl is having a blast

madness ain't gonna stop

even does the world ain't gonna last

oh every little thing seem dancing,

yay!!its the magic that's drooling

change I wanna move to the latin,

do or I will call up Stalin

Oh I miss the nazis ,

wish I could be tortured under the fascists

yay!!I am a freak..it ain't jack

its just that I am around ugly sadists

Hey..help I am gonna fall

no,wait,leave I love this plot,

everything is fun even if false,

don't bother even if I am lost

PRETENCE

Its so sad, yet so true,
you disguise yourself and pretend,
every time, you sounded concerned,
still I don't want to know,it was just pretence

I am a fool,yes I was too,
to believe your reasons,
but psyche did tell, you had different visions,
still I would want to see your pretence

Your lies seemed beautiful,
your care more than real,
emotions that were sham,why does my heart still feel?
when your pretence fails it,still it pleads.

Shunning away from reality,the only choice
no matter how false you were
standing in the ruins of innocent gloom
still,all I wish your pretence was true

WHO AM I?

I am in pursuit of the of the identity,
that I could best identify with,
my essence is not in fidelity
with my heart,pleads who am I?

My soul is still alien to my intellect
the conflict carries with every beat
thoughts become tough to exchange and recollect
they are baffled,question who am I?

I fail to comprehend myself
I don't even know myself well
what I want,what I need
are not the only ones,who am I?

Am I right,Am I wrong
I can't answer,my heart is juvenile
people still taunt me,why am still not strong
I just reply,I dont know,who am I?

Don't know when complexities cease,
when I do stop and recognise
my inner spirit which is still under dreams,
and put an end to the question,who am I?

I HAVE BEEN HERE ONCE BEFORE

I have been here before
(a song, I have written, and composing)



It feels like my own,
it has so much in store
I am lost but somehow I know,
the way I have to go


Yes,I have been here before



Its long been in my mind,
why I don't belong to this species and this kind
But, now am here,the place I always had to find
and am happy that I don't need to hide


Yes,I have been here before


I had to hide and camouflage my passion
I had to move away hiding my chagrin,
people put up so many questions
which now I don't feel to answer


Cuz I have been here before


This place is so like me,
it has so much to give and there is so much to see,
its always been my fantasy
but now it is in me


I have been here before......

Thank You for Being with Me

Thank You for Being with me

Its hard for me to say

things I have in my heart with me
I don't know if you care,but I have something to say,
Thank You for Being with me

You carry me when I am down
Lead me when I can't see,
Calm me when I am mad and unsound,
Thank You for Being with me

You hold me when I am lost,
become the air when I can't breathe
you are the warmth in the frost

Thank You for Being with me

Its when you love,

my pain seems to cease,

tenderly unwind my heart and soul

Thank You for Being with me

Some how I am scared to face alone

death, that's inevitable to me

without you I don't know how will I dare to go,

but even then I have to say

Thank You for Being with me......

LOST

Lost


I seem lost in the world,
don't know if I heard your word,
Now when I walk alone,
I wish I could have your love to own


Now that I am free,
I wish the walls closed on me,
wish I could have myself be death stoned
than have myself disowned


Wild wind that blew,
opened the doors to let me into rues,
of your memories which made me succumb,
sad, death couldn't come that soon


You used to say you will see me soon
but wait seems to long till the doom,
I wish I could have the key again
to the heart that kept me sane


Silence that creeps,
me under the memories under your breeze
makes it tougher for me to breathe
as the love for you refuses to cease


Can't stop your thoughts creeping my dreams
no more easy to find sleep,
impossible to find the reason for you
to refuse my existence, as if nothing new


I wish I could make you sense
your presence was much more than I ever sensed
Help me as you used to,
I am lost again,life I am going to lose

VOYAGE TO THE GRAVE

The journey has begun,

memories presenting themselves as the rising sun,

collecting all the dissapointments and fun,

that's how voyage to the grave begins

Those who love, even those who hate,

strangely get together & ironically pray,

some for the soul, some still with hate,

that's voyage to the grave,even for the greats

Those who took the soul for granted, do regret,

why couldn't they support, when it needed the most,

instead now have to support its cascade to the post,

Voyage to the grave such goes,

For the soul, its tough to leave,

its not easy to see their smiles cease,

wants time, hence pleads,

Voyage to the grave thus bleeds

As the time ticks,to bid the soul goodbye,

even the pain seems to cry,

why my love had to die

and had to have Voyage to grave with a sigh

god bless mah family n friends.....

DON'T HEAL MY WOUNDS

This poem is on the behalf of the thousands of victims and thousands of collateral victims, who were shattered physically, mentally, emotionally to the core. on 26th Nov 2008 by just 10 men armed with huge explosives, who entered this country of mine which takes pride in being the military superpower in the world. I here say, that forgetting this horrible day will just excuse the leaders from being accountable for the job they failed to do. I am angry, angry at all those people who want me to forget 26/11, and carry on my life. I am helpless for I live in democratic society, but still have no choice but to live in fear for the people who were meant to protect me are just busy doing lip service.

Don't heal my wounds,

for i don't want to get healed
don't want my anger to be repealed
want answers for the my pain and sufferings that made me bleed


Don't heal my wounds,
for I don't want to forgive anymore
I want my wounds to sore
don't want to forget,what shattered me to the core


Don't heal my wounds,
excuse my spirit for few moments
I am sick of my resilience,
don't test my patience


Don't heal my wounds,
I don't long for your solidarity
neither your sympathy
I want answers for my apathy


Don't heal my wounds,
for the unreasonable reasons
you give me every season,
though I was attacked for no reason


Don't heal my wounds,
cuz I can still see the mother,
who lost her son in the terror
and still believes that her son will be back for the supper

I AM THERE FOR YOU...

I AM THERE FOR YOU........

Do not drop tears of your eyes,

Smile, cuz happiness are few,

don't fall, cuz its time to rise,

Smile, I am there for you

I know pain is there, time isn't right,

Smile, cuz reasons will be new,

Pain will be lost, need to fight,

Smile, I am ther for you

Stay quiet, your eyes do say,

Smile, tears are precious as dew

Let it go, I shall pray

Smile, I will be there for you

Don't worry, hope shall stay,

Smile, rays are coming for you,

Brighten yourself, don't shun away,

Smile, I am there for you

I know your aim is too far,

Smile, even though you have no clue,

end will be sweet not sour,

Smile, I am there for you

People with you, may not be happy,

Smile, while you are rebuked,

you have to be strong, not saddy,

Smile, I am there for you

My presence may not always be felt,

Smile, the bond need not be proved,

even when nothing much is left,

Smile, I am there for you

SILENCE DOESN'T SPEAK TO ME

SILENCE DOESN'T SPEAK TO ME...... Vaccum seems to be airy again,

and I've no happiness to claim,

Wish there could be end to this dream,

as the silence doens't speak to me...

I try and camouflage my chagrin,

in the Euphoria of those who I say are mine,

Why the cycle seems to be mean?

why silence doesn't speak to me?

The isolation that had my love,

the inventions that were made in my clove,

seem far so gleam,

thus silence doesn't speak to me.

The symphony is indecorous,

The mirth of minbe is pretentious

this is acceptable as I seem,

I wait..

but, silence doesn't speak to me..

Wish the silence the Silence minces again,
before the cycle ends,

and tastes fresh as a 1000yr old wine

the Euphoria shall be prime

when the silence does speak to me.

WHO IS MINE?

WHO IS MINE?

I had a feeling, a confusion,

how come life is both cruel and kind?

to the relations, and creates fusion

and makes me wonder, who is mine?

Sweep of change,makes it ambiguous,

and makes me believe,that I can't never find,

true love that is so contagious,

and makes me wonder,who is mine?

How am I meant to sit and wonder,

for that splendourful sign,
the wait for which is tough & makes me surrender,

and then wonder, who is mine?

With all this I look up at the moon,

Expecting the one who shall be mine,

to be under this beautiful moon

and makes me wonder, who is mine?

I WAS WAITING.....

I WAS WAITING......

(This episte of mine is specially dedicated to someone whom i consider my angel, I don't care what people think about him, I feel he was an angel to the world,that world failed to recognise)

I was waiting dusk to dawn,

but don't know where he is gone,

Why the God had him withdrawn?

Before the baby could sing his song...

I was waiting damn so sure,

of him burning the floor,

Why god had opened his door?

Before the baby could dance to the core...

I was waiting for him to cheer,

he fans, who were, oh so dear,

Why god took his chance to clear?

Before the baby could sing his prayers...

I was waiting to his face,

So happy and full of zest,

Why god put him to test?

Before the baby could enjoy and take some rest....

I was waiting time to pass,

seemed slow even when it was fast,

Why god designed the plan?

Before the baby could cheer his clan....

luv u mike...always will